Scared!

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Have you ever had a dream so big that it scared you?

Dreams are personal I know, and one person’s dream may be another’s nightmare. My lifelong dream is to write and publish a book and not just any book, a novel. One that I am proud of.

A few months ago, I was offered the opportunity to do just that. Out of the blue, I was offered a chance to have my (yet unfinished book) published. No strings attached, I wasn’t having to pay them, it was a genuine offer.

I was overwhelmed, excited, thrilled, exhilarated. What I hadn’t anticipated was that my writing would slow up. I liked my story premise, I thought I can pull it off so why did I find myself procrastinating? The simple answer was that I was scared. Scared of not measuring up to my own ideas of what a writer should be.Scared of failure and of success.

After much soul-searching, I realised that I was scared that I was not the person I thought I was, ‘a writer’ Since that realisation I have faced my fears and showed up at the keyboard daily. I will finish the book. How can I not? I have people counting on me.

I’d love to know what scared you, did you face your fears or not? .

 

Author: soniabellhouse

Sonia Bellhouse is a contributor to Writing the Dream, an anthology for published writers produced by Serenity Press in 2016. In 2012she won two major awards in the inaugural Rockingham Short Fiction contest. Sonia's articles and stories are published in various magazines both in Australia and the UK. These include Good reading, Today's Bride, That's Life! and That's Life! Fast Fiction in Australia and Yours, The People's Friend and Best of British in the Uk. Sonia worked as a book reviewer for two years .As an avid reader and writer of multiple genres she facilitated a local book club for eleven years. She reluctantly decided to give it up, to concentrate on her writing. Sonia is a long time member of a writers group, regularly engaging authors to present workshops to the group.. Sonia enjoys catching up with friends, ignoring the ironing in favour of playing with her cat and learning new things. She's taken several online courses with Future Learn and The University of Iowa for both writing and non writing topics.

4 thoughts on “Scared!”

  1. You are an amazing writer with many wonderous experiences to share. I made the decision to leave a full time government job to become a full time writer as while ago and also experienced the lull. It took me a while to realise that I was letting my life take over and I was so busy chasing squirrels that I didn’t realise that I was going to fall out off the tree. Luckily I made many friends online that helped me through and it turns out most creatives people go through the same problem. I am glad that you realised you are a writer as am I.

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    1. Thank you for stopping by and commenting Dianna. I loved the mental picture I got of you busily chasing squirrels. Yes, The writing community can be both generous and supportive and I have made many friends both online and off.
      In his book The War of Art, Steven Pressfield says’ if you find yourself asking yourself am I really a writer? Am I really an artist? Chances are you are. The counterfeit innovator is wildly self-confident..THE REAL ONE is scared to death’

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