Have you ever had a dream so big that it scared you?
Dreams are personal I know, and one person’s dream may be another’s nightmare. My lifelong dream is to write and publish a book and not just any book, a novel. One that I am proud of.
A few months ago, I was offered the opportunity to do just that. Out of the blue, I was offered a chance to have my (yet unfinished book) published. No strings attached, I wasn’t having to pay them, it was a genuine offer.
I was overwhelmed, excited, thrilled, exhilarated. What I hadn’t anticipated was that my writing would slow up. I liked my story premise, I thought I can pull it off so why did I find myself procrastinating? The simple answer was that I was scared. Scared of not measuring up to my own ideas of what a writer should be.Scared of failure and of success.
After much soul-searching, I realised that I was scared that I was not the person I thought I was, ‘a writer’ Since that realisation I have faced my fears and showed up at the keyboard daily. I will finish the book. How can I not? I have people counting on me.
I’d love to know what scared you, did you face your fears or not? .
Sonia Bellhouse- Author. 
You are an amazing writer with many wonderous experiences to share. I made the decision to leave a full time government job to become a full time writer as while ago and also experienced the lull. It took me a while to realise that I was letting my life take over and I was so busy chasing squirrels that I didn’t realise that I was going to fall out off the tree. Luckily I made many friends online that helped me through and it turns out most creatives people go through the same problem. I am glad that you realised you are a writer as am I.
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Thank you for stopping by and commenting Dianna. I loved the mental picture I got of you busily chasing squirrels. Yes, The writing community can be both generous and supportive and I have made many friends both online and off.
In his book The War of Art, Steven Pressfield says’ if you find yourself asking yourself am I really a writer? Am I really an artist? Chances are you are. The counterfeit innovator is wildly self-confident..THE REAL ONE is scared to death’
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Lovely post, Sonia. Isn’t it funny that we can fear the things we dream of most. I think I suffer from that a bit …
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Thanks, Monique, that old ‘imposter syndrome’ again. All we can do is ignore it and push on
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